Alone on a Sunday...

It's 9:57am on a Sunday. Last Sunday for the month of July at that. Tomorrow is a brand new month. 7 months of 2005 have passed. Sheesh. The BER months is near, and that means Christmas is near too. Yep.

I'm alone right now. My Tatay is somewhere out there, must be at a neighbor's house. My Nanay is still in the province, she'll be back after my cousin Sam's 40 days. Lyn went to Pagsanjan with my UncleBoss and family. She was excited since last night. She even asked me if I was coming. I wanted to go but wasn't able to do laundry yesterday coz I had to attend to some [well, quite a lot actually] paperwork. Sigh. Tiring week this has been. And this coming week, is bound to be another busy one.

Friday night with the girls turned out good. Had yummy food courtesy of Doctora. Thanks thanks. Great company and all. We are not used to going out anymore. We usually [or mostly] just stay at Miss M's house for dinner and VS. It was a bit surprising seeing lotsa people drinking outside at 2am. Like Miss M said, why can't they just drink from the comfort of their houses. Heee.

Didn't get to chat with NG on our usual Saturday chat time [10pm ish my time...9am-ish his time] he had to meet with some people regarding a new job for him. He texted me last night and was excited about it. Talking about something good and stuff. Exchanged a few messages. I told him to text me when he's back online. I decided to go to bed instead of waiting in front of the PC. I was really sleeeepy, was even worried that I might not be able to last long in front of the PC. Blessing that he had to go somewhere no? Hee. I was able to zzz from 10pm-ish til about 3am. God is really good. Around 3am-ish, his text message came. I didn't hear the message alert tone, got up like 2 minutes after the message has been sent. I dunno. I'm still a bit weirded out on that. I was having this dream. Though, I vaguely remember but my crush from HS was in the dream. Can't remember the rest tho. It was good. We chatted 'til about 6am. Nap time for him. Laundry time for me. All good.

Done with the laundry and all. Will go back to bed and just zzzz for now.

Have a good August ya'll. Thanks again for visiting. God Bless us always.

I am setting us up for the future... [hmmmm...]

*Words to Live By...

Be Strong
Always choose truth over popularity.

Go For It!
The speed of the leader determines the rate of the pack.

Make It Happen
You can do it if you put your mind to it.

Courage To Succeed
Courage means taking a chance...in spite of all fears.

Be Yourself
Celebrate the right to be yourself.

Stay Positive
Attitudes are like ripples in the water... they spread.

Take Responsibility
If it is to be... It's up to me.

Respect Others
It doesn't matter how you look, what matters is how you think and act.

You Can Do It!
Build what you can with what you have, from where you are.

Dare to Dream
Courage is daring to take that first step... To place your dreams above your fears.

Set a Goal
When you want what you've never had, you must do what you've never done.

Believe in Yourself
Everyone has something important to say... Add your voice to the world.

* Thanks to Sara for this one. Just what I needed. Comforting words. Have a fine day/afternoon/evening. God Bless us always.

How do you like me now? ...

Prayer for today:
Lord God, thank You for bringing people into my life! Thank You for the many ways You use people to meet my needs, brighten my path, and lighten my load ... to enrich my knowledge of You and to counsel or correct or nourish me, building me up in the faith. But mos of all, I am glad to have You as my best Friend, my wonderful Counselor, and ever-present help in trouble. [Philippians 1:3; Psalms 46:1]

SisterM texted me earlier, she told me that SisterJ is in Dubai now. Safe and sound. They spoke on the phone and such. I'm glad they are in one area and that they will be together as soon as they're settled. Sigh. I miss them so. I am teary-eyed as I write this post. Oh well. I'm a self-confessed cry-baby imagine that. Heee. At least, they are just one text or email or chat or call away no? That's technology for you.

I'm supposed to be replying to NG's mails but will do that in a bit. I'm also chatting with Miss M. So, multi-tasking as best as I can.

I have laundry for the weekend. Long weekend at that. No work on the Manila area on Monday. Don't ask. Don't really care. Heee. I'm just happy that I get to stay home on that day.

Lyn still gets in my nerves at times. But I just ignore it. She's a kid. I'm an adult. That's that.

Anyhoo, will have to cut this short. Email time. I'm late in replying as it is. Heee. 27 mails to reply to and that is just from one person. Crazzeee.

Have a fine weekend. A long weekend to a few like moi. Thanks for dropping by. God Bless us always.

Friday the 22nd...

You're not the type of person to air your feelings in public, whether they're positive or negative. You just don't like letting the rest of the world in on your intimate matters, and that's entirely understandable. If you do feel the need to talk with someone about how you're doing now, however, don't worry for one second that you'll choose the wrong person. If anyone knows who to trust and who not to, it's you. [true enough...]

Prayer for today:
Lord Jesus, today help me to keep my eyes focused on You because You said that my temporary troubles are producing for me an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. May You use these trials to humble me and perfect my faith and produce in me that quality of endurance. [2 Corinthians 14:17-18; Deuteronomy 8:16-17]

Song at the moment: More than anyone by Gavin DeGraw.

SisterJ is leaving today. SisterM is way tooo excited. At least, they will be together no? That's a comfort to know. It will serve as bonding time for them. They've never seen eye to eye on some issues before. Heee. I always have to be the mediator on that. I will soooooooo miss having them around here. Sigh. I want to go to Dubai too.

Have a fine Friday and the weekend too. God Bless us always.

Read my mind...

You don't often turn to someone, even if you're really upset. You usually keep your own counsel. More often than not, you pay more attention to the problems and concerns of others than you do to your own. At the moment, however, despite all your best efforts, you're worried, and you really are wondering who to talk with about the situation. Rather than letting this get worse, why not get it over with now? Call your best friend or most trusted elder, and let it all out.

I was one step ahead of that one...heee. I'm feeling much better. REALLY. I am. Not great but good. It will get better in time. I know it. Prayers, ahhh, just what I needed. And I got lots of those. I know that too.

It's a rainy Wednesday, yet again, work was light yesterday. Bound to be another one today. I hope I don't have to go to our client's office today.

Cramps. Second day of the monthly gurl thing. Men are soooo lucky they don't have to endure this every month. Makes me want to be a man in this aspect. Heee.

Happy Birthday to the person I was named after...
NG (5:53:54 AM): Happy bday..hheheh
Me (5:54:08 AM): hmmmm
Me (5:54:23 AM): you talking to me?
NG (5:54:30 AM): yes
Me (5:54:32 AM): it's not my bday
NG (5:54:40 AM): Your namesake it is..heheh
NG (5:55:00 AM): i just thought of you when i heard this morning..heheh
NG (5:55:15 AM): Vikki C., the singer, it's her BDAY...she's 64
Me (5:55:19 AM): oh ok...

What else? I'm just killing some time here before I get dressed for work and all. Soooooo lazy. Can you blame me? I have my period. Hah! That's my excuse!

Oh, SisterJ will be leaving for Dubai on Friday. Sigh. I know I shouldn't be sad and all BUT I am. SisterM left a month or so ago. Missing her so much. Now, I'd be missing two sisters. I know they'd be together when they're both settled in Dubai. Just frustrates me in a way that I won't be there to look after them. I've always done that. I know I don't do a good job at it but I try my best. I guess, it goes with the territory of being the eldest among my siblings. I will miss waiting up for them to get home whenever they're out with friends. We are each other's movie companion. Fellow FRIENDS fanatics too. Oh well, it's not like we're not gonna see each other again right? Hmmm...right.

Isn't it such a sad reality how many Filipino families have to sacrifice being away from their families just to earn more? Sigh. Sad BUT true indeed. So, when do I get to go?

Ohkay...will end this one for now. Hope you stay dry today. Bring an umbrella. That I will do. I don't wanna get sick. Have a fine-d Wednesday. God Bless us always.

Not so bad day again...

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

That's my fave song at the moment but that doesn't mean I'm having a bad day now. Just happen to love the song. Yep. That's all there is to it.

My yahoo horoscope for today: When times are tough, or at least tricky, the universe often sends hints our way, via coincidental circumstances, vivid or recurring dreams or the appearance or reappearance of someone whose presence makes us feel a certain way. It's up to you now to figure out what those coincidences and dreams are all about. You know you can do it. If anyone is an expert at unraveling such things for others, it's you. Do it for yourself now.

I must say, I'm feeling much better today.

Prayer for the day: Create within me Lord, both the desire and the power to do Your gracious will ... and make me a joy to You in new ways. Thank You Holy Spirit for the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and strength. I rejoice that You are able to do for more than all I ask or think, according to Your power that is at work within me.

Have a fine rainy Tuesday ya'll. Thanks again for dropping by. God Bless us always.

Not so bad...

Josh Holloway before he was LOST...

Josh...nowadays...more of him at Josh Holloway Fan

Ian Somerhalder...those killer eyes... [Miss M and Laney, this one's for you...]

He turned 20-something yesterday. Haberday your highness. Hope you're behaving. Heee. [this is one of my fave pix of him...nice no?]

Ok, been at this page for a few hours now and I'm still here...was just piddling around the new upload pix thingy here at blogger.

I want to vent about stuff around here at home. Hmmmm. It's quite hard being the eldest [or is it oldest?] in the family, for some reason, I feel responsible when something is needed to be done around the house. I can only do so much though. I wish I could do more but I can't. Frustrating at times.

We have a 13-year-old gurl [let's call her Lyn]who's been living with us since the school started back in June. She's a cousin of sorts. My motherdear brought her here from the province coz her parents can't afford to put her to school. She's a highschool freshman. She's an ok girl. Just having a hard time adjusting to living with a kid around the house. When she first arrived here, I was rather surprised coz my motherdear didn't even told us. Or maybe she did I just wasn't told about it. My SisterM was about to leave for Dubai at that time. I was told that Lyn will be sleeping in SisterM's bed once she leaves for Dubai. I was against it, told my motherdear why Lyn can't sleep in their room instead. She rambled on and on that she will not be minding me and all. She will just be sleeping there. I just kept quiet about it. Of course, I didn't get my way on that. Lyn nows sleeps on SisterM's bed. And I'm still adjusting on the fact that she tend to be frisky [is that the right term for it?] whenever she's in bed. Our bed is a double decker, she's on the top bunk.

Anyhoo, like I said, she's an ok girl. Mostly quiet. My motherdear's intention of helping her and sending her to school is fine with me. Though, what bothers me is that we don't have the means for it. We can hardly make ends meet here at home. Our money goes right into bills, bills and more bills. It's been tough for months now coz SisterJ hasn't been working since February me thinks. It was just me and SisterM trying to make ends meet. I don't mind helping but if you don't have the means for it, why do so right? Motherdear have asked money from me so she could buy Lyn some school stuff [uniforms and such], I just gave her the money and just let that be. She will be needing stuff for school and who will buy those for her? My parents don't work anymore. So, it's up to us [my sisters and I] to pay for those no? Sigh. It's beginning to be a forced help on my end. It's like, I don't have a choice. Or to borrow Miss M's Mom's phrase: what can I do?

Motherdear is currently in the province now, minding some legal business about my Grandmother's property that some stooofid and greedy relatives wants for themselves. This property case has started while I was in highschool. It's now, 12 years since HS and it's still going on. I really feel like cussing those greedy relatives, I mean, I remember back in the day, they even stayed at our house for months whenever they're here in Manila. ALL FOR FREE, mind you. Walang utang na loob. I'm ashamed to be related to them. I really am.

Motherdear texted me a few weeks ago, that we should look after Lyn and all. Ask her what she needs for school and such. I was at the mall last week, I bought a shirt and some toiletries. Then SisterJ called me and asked if I had money coz Lyn needed jogging pants for school. I didn't have money left coz I already bought some things. I feel bad that Lyn doesn't have the jogging pants but is it my responsibility to get her that? I mean...I wasn't even too keen on her staying at our house.

It's just not fair that I feel guilty buying stuff for myself coz I think about her and the stuff that she needs for school. This will just be a sore issue for me. God loves a cheerful giver [can't remember from which verse that came from...] right? But I'm not at all cheerful about giving to her. Sigh.

Oh well...that's that. I don't know how long she'll be staying here but she's here. And I will continue to try and help her coz I have no choice. I become the bad guy if I don't help out no? Sigh. She recently turned 13 a few weeks back, I bought her undies, that gift, was from my heart though. No bad feelings when I bought those undies for her.

God help me be strong on this one. I don't dislike Lyn, I just don't like her that much. She once turned off the computer while I was in the shower. I got soooo irritated that I wanted to tell her off. But I didn't, I just told her nicely, that next time, asked me first if the computer needs to be turned off. Ayayay. Ok, I guess, that'll do for now. I feel a bit better. Should I feel better though? Oh well, things happen for a reason right? RIGHT.

Have a fine Sunday. God Bless us always.

Prayer for today...

I praise You God, that the things that happened in my past, both enjoyable and painful, are raw materials for blessings, both in my life and in the lives of others. I choose to look beyond my past and present troubles in this temporary life --- and fix my eyes on the unseen things that will last forever. I praise You for the eternal glory these things are piling up for me as I choose to trust You. [1 Thessalonians 5:18]

Dare ya to move...


Ok, been feeling [just a bit] down lately BUT this news cheered me up. NEED to save money. No more food for a month or so. Heee. I'm not an uber fan but just to hear Dare You To Move and Only Hope live will just be a BIG SIGH moment. I wish SisterM is here. My concert buddy. Oh well. Anyone wannna watch it with me? I would buy you a ticket but I don't have extra right now. Heee. God Bless us always.

Happy Images...


Hmmmm...my virtual guy...I know he's known for his womanizing ways ... but I still like him ... heee ... can you blame me?



My nephew Dylan...sucha rowdy 4-year old...


SisterJ and Nadoinks...


His CD was playing non-stop while I was napping yesterday afternoon ... hmmm ... I love his music...


Men on the wall..this one is on SisterM's side of the wall...she used to be on the top bunk of our double-decker bed...these men always stare at her...heee...I bet she misses them. I miss her lots too.


FRIENDS on the wall...also, there's Alanis, Alicia Keys, Stephen Speaks, Collective Soul and of course, Jom...

Ever had a dream that when you wake up and remember it...you just start crying? That's what happened to me yesterday. I prayed while I was crying. Even had to ask God...why the dream happened? Why that guy had to be in that dream? Sigh. The worst dream so far for me...more like a nightmare.

4105 emails from NG as of last night. We're not slowing down as of yet. It works for us so far. We get our off moments on chat but it's been great in general. Sometimes, you just can't be THAT talkie but you don't wanna be NOT online either. Crazeeee. Happy sigh.

Anyhoo, that will be it for now, short and sweet. Have a fine week. Thanks for dropping by again. God Bless us and our country ALWAYS. Let's all move to Yemen. [heee]

3rd of July...

Nadine before...


Nadine now...


SisterJ and my cousin Sam...


SisterM and Sam...

I started this post around 4am...it's now 5:28am and I'm still at it. It's a brand new month. Half of 2005 is officially over. WOW. That was fast.

How was the first half of 2005 treated you? I hope it's been ok. Mine has been good. The usual financial problems here and there but it was good in general.

I had to do a little tweaking on my blog template...changed the colorblocks for my faces. Heee. More of that in the future.

On a sad note, my cousin Sam [September 7, 1987 - June 29, 2005] passed away a few days ago. She was supposed to have a heart surgery. She was 17. She loved to draw and was actually good at it. She made paperdolls and paper/cardboard castles for Nadine. In return Nadine made her paper bags. Sigh. Sam grew up with us. She stayed with us 'til she was about 6 years old then she moved to the province. Three years ago, she came back here in Manila to have her heart checked and a possible operation. She stayed here at our house from time to time whenever her Mom needed to go back to the province. Sam didn't even make it to our Lola's funeral last year coz the doctors didn't think it would be safe for her. I remember she was so sad when we had to leave her behind for that. She spent lotsa time with our Lola growing up. At least, now they are together with our creator in heaven. That's a comfort to know. May you rest in peace Samantha. Oh well.

How do you deal when someone close to you die? I know that death is inevitable but we are never ready when it's time for someone we cared about. I've been praying about that time that I or my family be ready for that inevitable part of our lives.

Oh well. Life is short and sometimes sudden. That's why we have to be good to our neighbors and do good things to people in general. Luke 6:31 all the way.

Leaving you with today's prayer:
Thank You Father, that the Lord Jesus Christ demonstrated how I am to live and serve. May You strengthen my heart in every good work and every good word, so that more and more I may honor You by the way I live.

Thanks for dropping by. God Bless us always. Keep the faith. May we all have a fine July.