All up to Him...

He invites us to give our burdens and cares to Him, because He cares for us. [1 Peter 5:7].

If I didn't have God, I wouldn't find a reason to sit here at all. It would all be in vain. Whatever your God...whatever your heart. To strive for betterment of self, is evident of love. And love, is so mighty. It IS godly, and it is divine. [excerpt from Jann Arden's journal post dated 26-Sep-2005]

Tuesday, almost 7am here. Just posting a quick one.

I'm sleepy. I did get almost 6 hours of sleep last night. It felt great.

Will not get to meet NG this month. It's all good though. A bit sad about the fact since my mind is set to not work for two weeks. Hee. Haven't had a long vacay, no reason and budget to have one. NG's reason is something I am really familiar with. Of course, it can be some other reason too, but I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt and taking his word on that. He believes in God, so, I feel it's just that for now.

I have to say, long distance relationships, esp. the ones that started online is TOUGH. I NEVER thought that it would feel like this but damn, it's not easy. Kudos to those who can do it successfully. My prayers for them all. There are times, that I just wanna give up and all that but I don't want this to be another what if in my life.

I've had a few what ifs back then. Not online but just the same, I still wonder about that. Grrrr. I should have just grabbed that spoon back then. That guy seemed sincere and all that. I wonder how he is right now. Oh well. I don't want what I have with NG to be a wonderment in the future.

I have to see this through and see where it will lead us. Who knows really? Only God knows. Yes.

I'm not being preachy about it but I believe if I trust in Him completely and whole-heartedly things will be ok, even if the end result will not be favorable to me. As long as I have my faith in God, I WILL BE FINE-d. Indeed.

Nadine: Ate, ano favorite letter mo?
Me: V
N: Bakit?
Me: V for Vikkicar and V for Vrian
N: Vrian? Di naman ganon spell yun eh! [then she laughs]
Me: Ikaw, ano favorite letter mo?
N: C, kze wala sya sa abakada, naaawa ako sa kanya...
[Thank God for kids...I love Nadine. She makes me smile ALL THE TIME and I mean, ALL THE TIME.]

Have a fine week ahead. Thanks again for visiting. God Bless us always.

Trust in Him...

Trust by Sixpence None The Richer

Trust in the Lord
With all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your paths straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord with all your heart
And he will carry you through

Lord, sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on you when things are going rough
But then I turn my eyes up to the sky and I hear your voice

It says to me:
Trust in the Lord
With all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your paths straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord
With all your heart
And he will carry you through
And He will carry you through

Something To Do...

Ten Years Ago: The year was 1995. Hmmm. Alanis Morissette's Jagged Little Pill first came out. I bought a cassette tape of that. My Tita Mel passed away, she was 32. Parents came home from Jersey. We moved to Novaliches.

Five Years Ago: 2000. Much ado about the milennium bug. Made my very first website, Litebuzz Online.

One Year Ago: Hmmm...September 2004, I remember, M&A had a little fallout. Went to my HS Alumni Day/School Fair. Sat next to my crush. [heee]

Yesterday: Slept around 5am-ish. Still in sick bay. I don't like it one bit. Been taking paracetamol. I don't like pills. But I have to. Was in bed all day and plus the early evening. Was nodding on and off while watching the Gilmore Girls.

Five Songs I Know All The Words To:
How Do You Talk To An Angel by The Heights
You Oughta Know by Alanis Morissette
Baby I Love Your Way by Big Mountain
I'll Be There For You by The Rembrandts
Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion [yeah..I love that song...Up Close & Personal made me cry too...]

Five Things I Would Do with 100 Million Dollars:
Give to charity
Give to the church
Share it with the people I love [give them things that they want that couldn't afford..there's always that one thing that we always want BUT we can't just afford no? If I can afford it, it's a done deal.]
Set up college funds for Nadine, my nephew Dylan, and my other nephews and nieces
Finish school.

Five Things I Would Never Wear: Stiletto shoes, Corsets, Sleeveless Shirts [in public], Mini-skirts [O dear God!], and those longish-biggie earrings.

Five Favorite TV Shows: FRIENDS, Ed, Gilmore Girls, LOST, CSI

Five Bad Habits: Worrying too much, Not getting enough sleep, Can be negative at times, Worrying too much [ehe]...

Five Biggest Joys: Talking to Nadine, Chocolates, Snail Cards, Magazine or books on sale, Sleeping..

Five Fictional Characters I Would Date:
Lloyd Dobler [John Cusack in Say Anything];
Peter Wright [Robert Downey Jr. in Only You];
Eddie Alden [Hugh Jackman in Someone Like You];
Noah Calhoun [Ryan Gosling in The Notebook];
Christian [Ewan McGregor in Moulin Rouge]

Tagging: Anyone...don't wanna force anyone to do this...heee...took me a while to finish this one myself. Thanks to Jax for this one.

Have a fine Sunday. God Bless us always.

Like Gum is Perfection...

The One With All The Trivia

The One With All Ten Seasons

IF I had lotsa cash, I know a handful of people that will love those items above.

9 months as of today, who would've thought??? Sigh. [that's a good sigh btw...]

Anyhoo, have to go for now. Have a fine Tuesday. Thanks again for visiting. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.

Lazee Saturday...

Mid-Saturday afternoon right now. What have I accomplished so far? N-O-N-E. So lazeeee. Was in bed all day. Lazy to do the laundry. Lazy to do anything BUT stay in bed. I can stay in bed for hours. I don't recommend it though, headache alert now.

Hmmm...Nadine's feeling betterer now. Promised her a white Toblerone once she's a ok. She missed a week in school. Oh well, she can always catch up on that. Thank God she's ok now. Don't like seeing that lil gurl in sickbay.

Been searching for Fanlists today, found a Jamie Walters one. Whee. Though, it's inactive, I still joined. Told about it to the Jamie Group. Spreading the Jamie love. Hee. Also, joined a LOST, Gilmore Girls and Amazing Race fanlists. Will join more in time. Heee. I love fanlistings. Almost attempted to make one before for JZ. Thought about a K-lite fanlist before, that's never gonna happen now. Maybe, someday, a Jomari Yllana fanlist no? Who knows?

Speaking of Jom, he turned 29 last August 18. Last year, I was with him during his birthday. HAHAHA! Not alone with him of course. The Bench Understatement show fell on his birthday. Yummy Jom in red undies. ENOUGH said.

Goody news, my sisters will live together starting next month. SisterJ's employer allowed her to live outside their designated house and her employer will pay for her rent. Imagine that. Heee. And also, SisterJ is starting to cook. She tried Asado and Tokwa't Baboy already. Sigh. I miss them so much.

Speaking of missing someone, my cousin Sam would have been 18 last September 7th. Oh well, at least, she's in a better place now no?

Ok, on that note, will end this one for now. Will tag along my Tita and Nadine to the grocery. I need to buy toiletries. Have a fine weekend to you. Thanks for visiting again. Always appreciated. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.

Thank you God for Fridays...

Ok, I should be in bed right now but I'm still downloading Marty's performance from Rockstar last Wednesday night. Wouldn't if be cool to have a partner who's a rockstar? Heee. Just a thought.

I'm tired right now but I'm still typing away no? My eyes are closing a bit but must finish the download first before I log off.

It was a long Thursday at work, finished at around 7pm. Got home around 9:30pm. It took me an hour and a half to get on the LRT. I feel like cussing about that. Shaving Cream. Grrrr.

Speaking of grrrr moments, last Wednesday on our way home, someone hit my cousin's car. It was a soft hit but still. Traffic was bad around that time. EVERYWHERE. Damn. The guy who hit my cousin's car was in a hurry. I don't know why and he was fuming mad at my cousin. He said my cousin backed up. The thing is, even if my cousin did back up, his car will not be in contact with our car coz he was on our left side..not on our back. Oh well. He immediately said: Pasensya na. Pulis ako. Pulis ako! I thought to myself....SOOOO, if you're a police officer? When my cousin and Uncle Boss tried to get the plate number and stuff, the man rolled down his window and said [not in a nice way] : sige, kunin n'yo plate number, sige, i-report nyo, all along my cousin kept quiet and my UncleBoss was saying to the guy that his insurance will take care of that. Anyhoo, more blah blah blah from the guy...the part the REALLY scared me was when he said to my cousin: Sumakay ka na sa kotse mo kung hindi babarilin kita. Pati yang kasama mo. Para matodas na kayo. Totodasin ko kayo.

HELLLLLOOOOO? Can I just say pooohtangeeena?? That was a scary moment for me. That this sicko in a red corolla who we don't know from Adam scared me. Damn. I still remember it. When he said those words to my cousin.

There are quite a few people nowadays who are not afraid to kill someone no? They can just say, I will kill you coz I can or I want to. I feel sorry for those people that they can't seek God for help. Sigh.

I wished that moment didn't happen but it did. Good thing, ROCKSTAR: INXS was on so, I had to drool over MiG for a bit wearing his LEVIs. Hummina Hummina.

Anyhoo, download is done and it won't play. Sheesh. I'm sleepy now. Will talk again soon. God Bless.

Hmmmkay...

Template change again. I encountered some probs with the last one and I'm just not in the mood to tweak it. This looks much betterer. Heee. Have a fine Wednesday. God Bless.

Same Old Me...

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You're Sarah Thomas
(Kate Beckinsale - 'Serendipity')

You exude fun and intelligence, but you're often
unsure of your decisions. You think and rethink
until you're sure of the path to take, but many
times it's all a matter of the heart.
You rely on chance to control your life - though
it's a habit you've tried to break and perhaps
already have.But you still lack spontaneity.

You may express yourself in any number of ways, but
mostly with words.

You're booksy and artsy. You love music and
psychology. Your style is classic/eclectic.

All in all, you're the Thinker

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It's a little after midnight and I'm awake and online at that. Why you might ask? Well, just a bit of chat sked change with NG for a few days. NG's got Monday & Tuesday off, so, a bit of extra longish chat with him. I'm not complaining. I napped from 6-11pm last night. I take longer naps than usual of course.

I haven't been feeling 100% the past few days. Nasty cough here and there. Cough & phlegm go away please.

Had a late lunch/early dinner with the gurls last Friday. I had pesto pasta with chicken strips. Miss M & Doctora had chicken ala kiev [sp?], I wish I ordered that. Eeee had this rice dish that I forget the name. And I ordered chix stix with fries on the side. Miss M's chix stix is the BEST and her Pot salad too. [hint hint] We love to eat. Yep, we do.

Nadoinks has been in sick bay too. She has bronchitis [sp?]. Hope she feels better the soonest. Prayers check for my favorite little cousin.

Ok, that will be it for now. Have a fine Tuesday to all. Prayersf for everyall. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.

Yes, that's what I thought...

It's almost 7am on a Friday. Work is light today. Yay. I finished my work 'til about 6pm-ish last night, so, I'd have my Friday free. Late lunch with the gurls is scheduled today. I'm excited.

I'm coughing here and there. Crap. I'm taking Robittusin, I'm such a big baby when it comes to taking meds. I don't like taking them pills and tablets and capsules of any kind. So, I stick with the liquid form. Heee.

My HS friend's Mom passed away last Sunday night. Went to the wake for two nights. I'm not really into looking at dead people [I just wanna remember them as though they were still living] but I'm ok going to wakes. It's the least I could do for my friend right? Coz how can you comfort someone who just lost her parent? My friend grew up with just her Mama, now, she's alone alone. Sigh. Times like this, I wish I could do more for someone who's mourning for a loved one no? Prayers for my friend and for Tita Linda, I pray that you're in a more peaceful place right now.

Also, prayers check for the victims of the hurricane Katrina in New Orleans. Sigh. When nature strikes, you just can't do anything about that but keep your faith stronger.

It's the weekend. Yay. I love the weekends. Catch up on my zzzz and chats with NG. A long weekend at NG's end. Labor Day weekend then he's taking Tuesday off, that's 4 days of long chats. All good. It's getting closer. Yes. We were just talking about this month back in December. Now, it's here. Time does fly fast. I'm not complaining.

Speaking of fast times, at the wake last Monday night, my HS friends and I got to thinking that we are turning 30 next year. Man. We can't believe that we're turning Three-Oh, but we are. Actually, one is turning 30 already this month. Then I'm next in February. Wow. I had a plan before on how I'd celebrate my 30th. I scratched that plan since I met NG. It was just a plan. No biggie. I don't think I'd even go thru with it even if I didn't meet NG. It was a spur of the moment thing I thought of some years back. Nowadays, my plan is just to have a fine time on my 30th. Will I be alone? Who knows. I've been celebrating my day alone for years now. I think, I will do the same. Maybe, the first half of the day. I don't really know. I will cross the bridge when I get there.

On Oprah last Monday, it was about people who were sexually abused as a young person. Carrying the shame of it all after 20 plus years. Sigh. Some even confronted the person who took advantage of them. That was really painful to watch but I was able to. I don't think, I would ever have the courage to confront someone like that. A lot of people will get hurt. It's enough me thinks, that one person got hurt. Sigh. It's not about sex really, it's about control. Knowing that they can manipulate someone like that. When you're 12 or 13...you don't have much confidence in yourself. But why, does it always have to be the victims who are ashamed of it all? It's not their fault that they were abused. The shame. The fear of someone finding out. The feeling that you don't want to do anything where sex is concerned. A hug or a touch from someone reminds you of what happened to you back then. How can you go on with life as an adult? By having faith in God I say.

On a more lighter note, this guy is rocking my world nowadays:

Have a fine day ya'll. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.