Too much you say? ...

Hmmmm...I'm still here. Always here. Happy most of the time. The sad moments doesn't stay with me for too long. I don't let it stay. God is good. I know that.

Been experiencing financial probs [as always] here at home BUT I know, in time, once my sisters are settled in Dubai, things will be ok.

Two weeks ago, my 37-year old cousin had a mild heart attack, he's ok now, just wished he'd quit smoking and stay away from those fatty food from now on. His own dad had a few attacks and two surgeries [I think...] and my dear Tatay [3 attacks, 1 surgery]; another Tito [2 attacks]; an older sister of my dear Tatay [1 surgery...and a few attacks...] and Tito Fred [one attack and it turned out to be fatal...] SIGH. Why can't they learn from that? I mean, if you love your family, wouldn't you wanna see them not worrying about your condition?

Oh well...I hope the men in my family quit smoking someday no? Been praying about that all the time. Before it's too late. I'm glad NG doesn't smoke.

A friend of mine confessed something to me the other night, she told me in confidence, so, I won't talk about it here. I just am happy that she trusted me enough and told me about it. Prayers for her though. She needs clarity on some things.

On a more lighter note, I am quoting my HS friend AJ from a post on her blurty, it just touched me. I just felt the love after reading her post. I am happy knowing that my friends are happy. Always makes me happy as well. Happy. Happy. Happy.
Love doesn’t need an explanation, she says. It’s just there. It presents itself and it removes all fears of the unknown.
She was my unknown happiness all these time. At a time when I’ve lost hope and faith at a chance to happiness she came and embraced all that I am, all that I’m not and all that I would be. I’m so glad and grateful that I went to the unknown territory called love to be able to feel this way.

I figured out how to view my archives but it requires a few clicks here and there...darn, will have to tweak it some more. My head is aching just thinking about it.

5096 emails from NG since last night. There are 10000++ mails between us. Imagine that. Who would've thought? Certainly not the two of us. Taking it as it comes. No need to rush. We have time in our hands. That's four hands so, more time. Heee. Gotta have faith. Whatever will be, will be.

Have a fine Sunday ya'll. Thanks again for visiting. God Bless.

Feels like it...

Saturday morning here, another weekend. It's ok so far. Hope yours ain't bad too.

I've had an off week so to speak. Thinking of where to get money and stuff. It's hard keeping up with bills and such. Frustrating at times. BUT we just have to continue having faith. That the probs we're experiencing now will be a temporary one. Yes, quite hard to accept when you're in the moment but if we're faithful to God, it'll be fine.

My dear Nanay is still in the province. She wants to go home but she can't coz of the property case there. Oh well. She'll be here soon. She keeps texting me and says that I should take care of Lyn and asks her what she needs for school. Like that would happen.

Yeah right! I'm not a bad person but I won't do something that I don't want to just to be a "good" person in the eyes of a few people. Man, I don't like the fact that Lyn is living with us but I didn't have a choice. Like the other day, she told me that she needed to pay for this and that. I sooooo wanted to reply, "pakialam ko..." I mean, we're experiencing money probs right now [like always] more than ever coz my sisters are still adjusting in Dubai and all and having Lyn here is just not very appealing to me. I know, I don't pay all the bills in here but I help with whatever I can. Sigh. Sometimes, I feel guilty buying this and that for myself coz I know she may be needing something. BUT, it's not my responsibility. OH man. I thought the feeling of me not wanting her here will go away but it's still here. Maybe, in a few months, when we're not having money probs anymore, it'll be ok. Who knows. I just wish my Nanay didn't bring her here without thinking of where she'll get the money for her schooling. Can only sigh about this. Been praying a whole lot about this matter too.

On a much lighter note, I'm hooked on Rockstar:INXS, my faves are MiG Ayesa, Marty Casey [Mr. Brightside is one of my current fave songs coz of his performance] and Deanna Johnston [got a husky kinda voice but me likey]. Also, never thought INXS have great songs. I'm only familiar to a few but when I saw the vid for Never Tear Us Apart, man...that's a really emo song, Michael Hutchence is such a passionate singer. I've heard Suzie McNeil's & JD's version, also Deanna's. Wow. Nice nice song. I'm thinking of buying an INXS cd sometime soon. Yep. Maybe, a best of CD.

I have a new layout indeed BUT I still have to figure out how my archives will appear. Hmmm. I will figure it out in time. I'm not an HTML doctor, I wish I am. That would be very handy no?

CDs on my list as of today:

Alanis' 10th Anniversary edition of Jagged Little Pill [acoustic baby...can you believe it's been 10 years since that album first came out. WOW!!!]
The Killers - Hot Fuss
Jason Mraz - Mr. A-Z
Best of INXS

I love MiG's voice. Man, he's such a good performer. Heee. Very crush-worthy. He made me love the song Baby, I Love Your Way even more. SIGH. I'm even participating in the message board. I watch his videos everytime I'm in front of the PC. Heee. I'm hook like that. Oh, speaking of Rockstar, it's request week, just go to Rockstar@MSN for more info. You get to request as to which song each rocker will perform. I have voted Hard To Handle for MiG. I'm excited.

Ok, must end this one for now. To EBC, we will have better days. That's for sure. Prayers check for everyall. Have a fine Saturday. God Bless us always.

New Layout...

Hmmm...since I've been getting feedbacks that the layout I had before is too darn slow, here it is, a new one. Got this from BlogSkins. Laney, tell me if this is loading at your end properly. Have a fine week to all. God Bless us always.

Quickie post...

I'm still here. Always here. Just dealing with a few bend in the road of life. Ehem. It's not that bad. Missing my sisters. Sigh. I really do. I don't have someone to share this computer. I miss sharing it with them and waiting for my turn to use it. But now, it's always just me. Anyhoo, that will be all for now. Have a fine day. God Bless us always.

Crush on you...

I have a new crush at the workplace. Yeeeha. Someone that makes me smile whenever I see him. No worries. It's a harmless crush. I'm pretty sure he doesn't notice me. Though he looks my way [or so I'd like to think..heee...] whenever we pass by in the hallway. But what the hey, he makes me smile whenever I see him. Makes the stay at the work place bearable at least. I feel like I'm back in high school. Sheesh.

God Bless us always.