Hmmmkay...

Template change again. I encountered some probs with the last one and I'm just not in the mood to tweak it. This looks much betterer. Heee. Have a fine Wednesday. God Bless.

Same Old Me...

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You're Sarah Thomas
(Kate Beckinsale - 'Serendipity')

You exude fun and intelligence, but you're often
unsure of your decisions. You think and rethink
until you're sure of the path to take, but many
times it's all a matter of the heart.
You rely on chance to control your life - though
it's a habit you've tried to break and perhaps
already have.But you still lack spontaneity.

You may express yourself in any number of ways, but
mostly with words.

You're booksy and artsy. You love music and
psychology. Your style is classic/eclectic.

All in all, you're the Thinker

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It's a little after midnight and I'm awake and online at that. Why you might ask? Well, just a bit of chat sked change with NG for a few days. NG's got Monday & Tuesday off, so, a bit of extra longish chat with him. I'm not complaining. I napped from 6-11pm last night. I take longer naps than usual of course.

I haven't been feeling 100% the past few days. Nasty cough here and there. Cough & phlegm go away please.

Had a late lunch/early dinner with the gurls last Friday. I had pesto pasta with chicken strips. Miss M & Doctora had chicken ala kiev [sp?], I wish I ordered that. Eeee had this rice dish that I forget the name. And I ordered chix stix with fries on the side. Miss M's chix stix is the BEST and her Pot salad too. [hint hint] We love to eat. Yep, we do.

Nadoinks has been in sick bay too. She has bronchitis [sp?]. Hope she feels better the soonest. Prayers check for my favorite little cousin.

Ok, that will be it for now. Have a fine Tuesday to all. Prayersf for everyall. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.

Yes, that's what I thought...

It's almost 7am on a Friday. Work is light today. Yay. I finished my work 'til about 6pm-ish last night, so, I'd have my Friday free. Late lunch with the gurls is scheduled today. I'm excited.

I'm coughing here and there. Crap. I'm taking Robittusin, I'm such a big baby when it comes to taking meds. I don't like taking them pills and tablets and capsules of any kind. So, I stick with the liquid form. Heee.

My HS friend's Mom passed away last Sunday night. Went to the wake for two nights. I'm not really into looking at dead people [I just wanna remember them as though they were still living] but I'm ok going to wakes. It's the least I could do for my friend right? Coz how can you comfort someone who just lost her parent? My friend grew up with just her Mama, now, she's alone alone. Sigh. Times like this, I wish I could do more for someone who's mourning for a loved one no? Prayers for my friend and for Tita Linda, I pray that you're in a more peaceful place right now.

Also, prayers check for the victims of the hurricane Katrina in New Orleans. Sigh. When nature strikes, you just can't do anything about that but keep your faith stronger.

It's the weekend. Yay. I love the weekends. Catch up on my zzzz and chats with NG. A long weekend at NG's end. Labor Day weekend then he's taking Tuesday off, that's 4 days of long chats. All good. It's getting closer. Yes. We were just talking about this month back in December. Now, it's here. Time does fly fast. I'm not complaining.

Speaking of fast times, at the wake last Monday night, my HS friends and I got to thinking that we are turning 30 next year. Man. We can't believe that we're turning Three-Oh, but we are. Actually, one is turning 30 already this month. Then I'm next in February. Wow. I had a plan before on how I'd celebrate my 30th. I scratched that plan since I met NG. It was just a plan. No biggie. I don't think I'd even go thru with it even if I didn't meet NG. It was a spur of the moment thing I thought of some years back. Nowadays, my plan is just to have a fine time on my 30th. Will I be alone? Who knows. I've been celebrating my day alone for years now. I think, I will do the same. Maybe, the first half of the day. I don't really know. I will cross the bridge when I get there.

On Oprah last Monday, it was about people who were sexually abused as a young person. Carrying the shame of it all after 20 plus years. Sigh. Some even confronted the person who took advantage of them. That was really painful to watch but I was able to. I don't think, I would ever have the courage to confront someone like that. A lot of people will get hurt. It's enough me thinks, that one person got hurt. Sigh. It's not about sex really, it's about control. Knowing that they can manipulate someone like that. When you're 12 or 13...you don't have much confidence in yourself. But why, does it always have to be the victims who are ashamed of it all? It's not their fault that they were abused. The shame. The fear of someone finding out. The feeling that you don't want to do anything where sex is concerned. A hug or a touch from someone reminds you of what happened to you back then. How can you go on with life as an adult? By having faith in God I say.

On a more lighter note, this guy is rocking my world nowadays:

Have a fine day ya'll. Keep the faith. God Bless us always.

Too much you say? ...

Hmmmm...I'm still here. Always here. Happy most of the time. The sad moments doesn't stay with me for too long. I don't let it stay. God is good. I know that.

Been experiencing financial probs [as always] here at home BUT I know, in time, once my sisters are settled in Dubai, things will be ok.

Two weeks ago, my 37-year old cousin had a mild heart attack, he's ok now, just wished he'd quit smoking and stay away from those fatty food from now on. His own dad had a few attacks and two surgeries [I think...] and my dear Tatay [3 attacks, 1 surgery]; another Tito [2 attacks]; an older sister of my dear Tatay [1 surgery...and a few attacks...] and Tito Fred [one attack and it turned out to be fatal...] SIGH. Why can't they learn from that? I mean, if you love your family, wouldn't you wanna see them not worrying about your condition?

Oh well...I hope the men in my family quit smoking someday no? Been praying about that all the time. Before it's too late. I'm glad NG doesn't smoke.

A friend of mine confessed something to me the other night, she told me in confidence, so, I won't talk about it here. I just am happy that she trusted me enough and told me about it. Prayers for her though. She needs clarity on some things.

On a more lighter note, I am quoting my HS friend AJ from a post on her blurty, it just touched me. I just felt the love after reading her post. I am happy knowing that my friends are happy. Always makes me happy as well. Happy. Happy. Happy.
Love doesn’t need an explanation, she says. It’s just there. It presents itself and it removes all fears of the unknown.
She was my unknown happiness all these time. At a time when I’ve lost hope and faith at a chance to happiness she came and embraced all that I am, all that I’m not and all that I would be. I’m so glad and grateful that I went to the unknown territory called love to be able to feel this way.

I figured out how to view my archives but it requires a few clicks here and there...darn, will have to tweak it some more. My head is aching just thinking about it.

5096 emails from NG since last night. There are 10000++ mails between us. Imagine that. Who would've thought? Certainly not the two of us. Taking it as it comes. No need to rush. We have time in our hands. That's four hands so, more time. Heee. Gotta have faith. Whatever will be, will be.

Have a fine Sunday ya'll. Thanks again for visiting. God Bless.

Feels like it...

Saturday morning here, another weekend. It's ok so far. Hope yours ain't bad too.

I've had an off week so to speak. Thinking of where to get money and stuff. It's hard keeping up with bills and such. Frustrating at times. BUT we just have to continue having faith. That the probs we're experiencing now will be a temporary one. Yes, quite hard to accept when you're in the moment but if we're faithful to God, it'll be fine.

My dear Nanay is still in the province. She wants to go home but she can't coz of the property case there. Oh well. She'll be here soon. She keeps texting me and says that I should take care of Lyn and asks her what she needs for school. Like that would happen.

Yeah right! I'm not a bad person but I won't do something that I don't want to just to be a "good" person in the eyes of a few people. Man, I don't like the fact that Lyn is living with us but I didn't have a choice. Like the other day, she told me that she needed to pay for this and that. I sooooo wanted to reply, "pakialam ko..." I mean, we're experiencing money probs right now [like always] more than ever coz my sisters are still adjusting in Dubai and all and having Lyn here is just not very appealing to me. I know, I don't pay all the bills in here but I help with whatever I can. Sigh. Sometimes, I feel guilty buying this and that for myself coz I know she may be needing something. BUT, it's not my responsibility. OH man. I thought the feeling of me not wanting her here will go away but it's still here. Maybe, in a few months, when we're not having money probs anymore, it'll be ok. Who knows. I just wish my Nanay didn't bring her here without thinking of where she'll get the money for her schooling. Can only sigh about this. Been praying a whole lot about this matter too.

On a much lighter note, I'm hooked on Rockstar:INXS, my faves are MiG Ayesa, Marty Casey [Mr. Brightside is one of my current fave songs coz of his performance] and Deanna Johnston [got a husky kinda voice but me likey]. Also, never thought INXS have great songs. I'm only familiar to a few but when I saw the vid for Never Tear Us Apart, man...that's a really emo song, Michael Hutchence is such a passionate singer. I've heard Suzie McNeil's & JD's version, also Deanna's. Wow. Nice nice song. I'm thinking of buying an INXS cd sometime soon. Yep. Maybe, a best of CD.

I have a new layout indeed BUT I still have to figure out how my archives will appear. Hmmm. I will figure it out in time. I'm not an HTML doctor, I wish I am. That would be very handy no?

CDs on my list as of today:

Alanis' 10th Anniversary edition of Jagged Little Pill [acoustic baby...can you believe it's been 10 years since that album first came out. WOW!!!]
The Killers - Hot Fuss
Jason Mraz - Mr. A-Z
Best of INXS

I love MiG's voice. Man, he's such a good performer. Heee. Very crush-worthy. He made me love the song Baby, I Love Your Way even more. SIGH. I'm even participating in the message board. I watch his videos everytime I'm in front of the PC. Heee. I'm hook like that. Oh, speaking of Rockstar, it's request week, just go to Rockstar@MSN for more info. You get to request as to which song each rocker will perform. I have voted Hard To Handle for MiG. I'm excited.

Ok, must end this one for now. To EBC, we will have better days. That's for sure. Prayers check for everyall. Have a fine Saturday. God Bless us always.