Will I Be Saved...?

While watching the movie Saved, I asked myself these questions:

Why can't I sing/praise [with so much gusto] like some of the characters in the movie?

Will I be judged for my religion?

Will I judge other people based on their religion?

Why can't I fully let God be the one to guide me in this life?

Why do I still sometimes feel not going to church every Sunday?

Why do I still sometimes blame Him for what's happening around the world?

Why do I continue doing things that I know God will not approve of?

I still need so much enlightenment when it comes to the Bible. I have a Bible but I haven't really read it that much. The only times that I get to read is whenever I have to check on some passages. I've been thinking of joining Bible studies for a while now but since talking is not my best trait, I just don't go ahead with it. Is there a Bible study group that doesn't allow me to talk?

Pastor Skip : What you are doing is wrong in the eyes of Jesus. This is not a time for moral ambiguity.
Dean : In my heart, I know that Jesus still loves me.

Yes, I believe, Jesus loves me And will continue loving me unconditionally. The question for me now is, how much do I love Him? I'm hopeful. Praying for it everyday.