Read my mind...

You don't often turn to someone, even if you're really upset. You usually keep your own counsel. More often than not, you pay more attention to the problems and concerns of others than you do to your own. At the moment, however, despite all your best efforts, you're worried, and you really are wondering who to talk with about the situation. Rather than letting this get worse, why not get it over with now? Call your best friend or most trusted elder, and let it all out.

I was one step ahead of that one...heee. I'm feeling much better. REALLY. I am. Not great but good. It will get better in time. I know it. Prayers, ahhh, just what I needed. And I got lots of those. I know that too.

It's a rainy Wednesday, yet again, work was light yesterday. Bound to be another one today. I hope I don't have to go to our client's office today.

Cramps. Second day of the monthly gurl thing. Men are soooo lucky they don't have to endure this every month. Makes me want to be a man in this aspect. Heee.

Happy Birthday to the person I was named after...
NG (5:53:54 AM): Happy bday..hheheh
Me (5:54:08 AM): hmmmm
Me (5:54:23 AM): you talking to me?
NG (5:54:30 AM): yes
Me (5:54:32 AM): it's not my bday
NG (5:54:40 AM): Your namesake it is..heheh
NG (5:55:00 AM): i just thought of you when i heard this morning..heheh
NG (5:55:15 AM): Vikki C., the singer, it's her BDAY...she's 64
Me (5:55:19 AM): oh ok...

What else? I'm just killing some time here before I get dressed for work and all. Soooooo lazy. Can you blame me? I have my period. Hah! That's my excuse!

Oh, SisterJ will be leaving for Dubai on Friday. Sigh. I know I shouldn't be sad and all BUT I am. SisterM left a month or so ago. Missing her so much. Now, I'd be missing two sisters. I know they'd be together when they're both settled in Dubai. Just frustrates me in a way that I won't be there to look after them. I've always done that. I know I don't do a good job at it but I try my best. I guess, it goes with the territory of being the eldest among my siblings. I will miss waiting up for them to get home whenever they're out with friends. We are each other's movie companion. Fellow FRIENDS fanatics too. Oh well, it's not like we're not gonna see each other again right? Hmmm...right.

Isn't it such a sad reality how many Filipino families have to sacrifice being away from their families just to earn more? Sigh. Sad BUT true indeed. So, when do I get to go?

Ohkay...will end this one for now. Hope you stay dry today. Bring an umbrella. That I will do. I don't wanna get sick. Have a fine-d Wednesday. God Bless us always.

Not so bad day again...

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

That's my fave song at the moment but that doesn't mean I'm having a bad day now. Just happen to love the song. Yep. That's all there is to it.

My yahoo horoscope for today: When times are tough, or at least tricky, the universe often sends hints our way, via coincidental circumstances, vivid or recurring dreams or the appearance or reappearance of someone whose presence makes us feel a certain way. It's up to you now to figure out what those coincidences and dreams are all about. You know you can do it. If anyone is an expert at unraveling such things for others, it's you. Do it for yourself now.

I must say, I'm feeling much better today.

Prayer for the day: Create within me Lord, both the desire and the power to do Your gracious will ... and make me a joy to You in new ways. Thank You Holy Spirit for the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and strength. I rejoice that You are able to do for more than all I ask or think, according to Your power that is at work within me.

Have a fine rainy Tuesday ya'll. Thanks again for dropping by. God Bless us always.

Not so bad...

Josh Holloway before he was LOST...

Josh...nowadays...more of him at Josh Holloway Fan

Ian Somerhalder...those killer eyes... [Miss M and Laney, this one's for you...]

He turned 20-something yesterday. Haberday your highness. Hope you're behaving. Heee. [this is one of my fave pix of him...nice no?]

Ok, been at this page for a few hours now and I'm still here...was just piddling around the new upload pix thingy here at blogger.

I want to vent about stuff around here at home. Hmmmm. It's quite hard being the eldest [or is it oldest?] in the family, for some reason, I feel responsible when something is needed to be done around the house. I can only do so much though. I wish I could do more but I can't. Frustrating at times.

We have a 13-year-old gurl [let's call her Lyn]who's been living with us since the school started back in June. She's a cousin of sorts. My motherdear brought her here from the province coz her parents can't afford to put her to school. She's a highschool freshman. She's an ok girl. Just having a hard time adjusting to living with a kid around the house. When she first arrived here, I was rather surprised coz my motherdear didn't even told us. Or maybe she did I just wasn't told about it. My SisterM was about to leave for Dubai at that time. I was told that Lyn will be sleeping in SisterM's bed once she leaves for Dubai. I was against it, told my motherdear why Lyn can't sleep in their room instead. She rambled on and on that she will not be minding me and all. She will just be sleeping there. I just kept quiet about it. Of course, I didn't get my way on that. Lyn nows sleeps on SisterM's bed. And I'm still adjusting on the fact that she tend to be frisky [is that the right term for it?] whenever she's in bed. Our bed is a double decker, she's on the top bunk.

Anyhoo, like I said, she's an ok girl. Mostly quiet. My motherdear's intention of helping her and sending her to school is fine with me. Though, what bothers me is that we don't have the means for it. We can hardly make ends meet here at home. Our money goes right into bills, bills and more bills. It's been tough for months now coz SisterJ hasn't been working since February me thinks. It was just me and SisterM trying to make ends meet. I don't mind helping but if you don't have the means for it, why do so right? Motherdear have asked money from me so she could buy Lyn some school stuff [uniforms and such], I just gave her the money and just let that be. She will be needing stuff for school and who will buy those for her? My parents don't work anymore. So, it's up to us [my sisters and I] to pay for those no? Sigh. It's beginning to be a forced help on my end. It's like, I don't have a choice. Or to borrow Miss M's Mom's phrase: what can I do?

Motherdear is currently in the province now, minding some legal business about my Grandmother's property that some stooofid and greedy relatives wants for themselves. This property case has started while I was in highschool. It's now, 12 years since HS and it's still going on. I really feel like cussing those greedy relatives, I mean, I remember back in the day, they even stayed at our house for months whenever they're here in Manila. ALL FOR FREE, mind you. Walang utang na loob. I'm ashamed to be related to them. I really am.

Motherdear texted me a few weeks ago, that we should look after Lyn and all. Ask her what she needs for school and such. I was at the mall last week, I bought a shirt and some toiletries. Then SisterJ called me and asked if I had money coz Lyn needed jogging pants for school. I didn't have money left coz I already bought some things. I feel bad that Lyn doesn't have the jogging pants but is it my responsibility to get her that? I mean...I wasn't even too keen on her staying at our house.

It's just not fair that I feel guilty buying stuff for myself coz I think about her and the stuff that she needs for school. This will just be a sore issue for me. God loves a cheerful giver [can't remember from which verse that came from...] right? But I'm not at all cheerful about giving to her. Sigh.

Oh well...that's that. I don't know how long she'll be staying here but she's here. And I will continue to try and help her coz I have no choice. I become the bad guy if I don't help out no? Sigh. She recently turned 13 a few weeks back, I bought her undies, that gift, was from my heart though. No bad feelings when I bought those undies for her.

God help me be strong on this one. I don't dislike Lyn, I just don't like her that much. She once turned off the computer while I was in the shower. I got soooo irritated that I wanted to tell her off. But I didn't, I just told her nicely, that next time, asked me first if the computer needs to be turned off. Ayayay. Ok, I guess, that'll do for now. I feel a bit better. Should I feel better though? Oh well, things happen for a reason right? RIGHT.

Have a fine Sunday. God Bless us always.

Prayer for today...

I praise You God, that the things that happened in my past, both enjoyable and painful, are raw materials for blessings, both in my life and in the lives of others. I choose to look beyond my past and present troubles in this temporary life --- and fix my eyes on the unseen things that will last forever. I praise You for the eternal glory these things are piling up for me as I choose to trust You. [1 Thessalonians 5:18]

Dare ya to move...


Ok, been feeling [just a bit] down lately BUT this news cheered me up. NEED to save money. No more food for a month or so. Heee. I'm not an uber fan but just to hear Dare You To Move and Only Hope live will just be a BIG SIGH moment. I wish SisterM is here. My concert buddy. Oh well. Anyone wannna watch it with me? I would buy you a ticket but I don't have extra right now. Heee. God Bless us always.