Our Very Own Modem

Last night, my sister bought our very own modem. Yay. Things could only get better. Our TV and VCR will be here sooner than soon as well. Yay.

Saw About A Boy as well. I liked it. Heart-warming.

Blog Tree

Irene told me about Blog Tree today. I checked it out. I signed up. I consider Ick as the parent of my blog. Yeeha...

Feelings, Such Strong Feelings

[I borrowed my title from a FRIENDS line...]

How am I feeling today? Well...I'm feeling good. Why Good? Because Wednesday happens to be my favorite day of the week. Why Wednesday? Because of Friends, CSI and The Practice and Nitelite ['til March of this year].

A couple of weeks ago I wasn't feeling so good. I was sad. I was hating myself.

I didn't particularly liked myself during those times. I was down and all that. Tried my best to tell myself that everything will be okay once I get to talk. And I got to talk. And I felt much better.

I feel like...for me, I'd really have to be cautious with my actions or whatever.

So as to not hurt people's feelings.

Coz when I learned that I hurt people's feelings [eventhough I didn't purposely do it...] it hurts me the most.

When I'm hurt, I feel very vulnerable...I tend to get lost in the scheme of things...And I don't like that...That's why, I keep in mind not to hurt other people's feelings...

I'm just grateful that I have friends...Really Grateful...More than words can say...Awww...I'm getting teary-eyed...

Enough about me...More on the coming days...

Today, I feel good. And I didn't hurt anyone's feelings today...That is good...God is good...

Bargain Lady...

Whenever I go to a mall, my first stop is the magazine/bargain books stores [Filbars, Booksale or the SM Supermarket], that is my routine. Once I stepped inside...I just have to find the nearest mag store. To see if there are bargain magazines that I will happen to like. Just like tonight, I went to Filbars and found the JANE May 2002 ish...I bought it. Then, I found the Entertainment IT List issue...got it too, it was on sale, I just couldn't resist. I got a book of Caleb Carr from Booksale, books there are always on sale. I got it for less than a 100 peso. My total magazine and book expenses for the week including the JANE March 2002 ish, PEOPLE Extra, Latina 2000 issue [Ben Bratt on the cover], Premiere Jan2002 ish, GQ June 2000 [Marky on the cover], 3 Entertainment Weekly Magazines that I bought earlier of the week is...wait...let me do the math...ohkay...got it...it's 642 pesos for 10 magazines and one book. Not bad...not bad at all...

Just Talk...

Saturday night.

The night that I was waiting for.

My supposed night to talk.

And did I talk?

Yeah, I did but still not that much.

Though I think I was able to tell them what was on my mind.

After, I felt a lot better.

The last two weeks was one of the low moments for me.

It was sad.

Anyway, I really have to do something about me and talking...

We have to work with each other or else?...

It will just drive people away from me...

I've not been talkative [at all] for so long that I don't know where to begin.

Darn...But I'm really glad...at least, I was able to talk...even for a bit...

Haaaayyyy...

I talk to myself more than any human being...well, except for God...is that normal? Talking to one's self? Am I getting loony? I'm still thinking back when and how and why I became this silent person. I'm like a mute person most often than not. I don't think I'm a push-over but that may seem to some people because I don't argue...I don't like arguments...once someone's voice got high, I just have to back down/off...

Maybe I should carry a recorder with me...